I'm depressed! In my life .. up to this point and no further.
The last two weeks I had such bad anxiety like never before! And here it is. Even Michael has felt that something needs to happen, and now I have a therapist. Accident - or providence of God ... Michael has met with a therapist, and I immediately made an appointment.
a long time I'm thinking about doing another treatment. Bettina, my last therapist has achieved good results and I even offered to work again with me further. But somehow it was not right for me.
I have much belongs in me calls out with my friends, my husband and my sister. Many things in these discussions have broken down. And last Wednesday it was finally time.
My first date .. Loved it! And now I know why I did not want to Bettina. I think this work-up phase, I have to do with a man. Who knows what's coming to light, all of which aufscheint in me .. and I'm sure I'm right here.
After this date, I went back out thus solved. The load which the last few months has placed on my shoulders and caused me pain was gone.
Now I look very eagerly awaits the next few months, even with a little fear in me because only I know what everything is inside and what I need ausprechen everything. And I know many probably still nothing ..
It is certainly a hard be time. Tears will flow and rage will make broad, I will feel sadness, and some will surely come hard on my lips. But it is .. I'm ready!
And every time, will remove the fear in me, do take a small step out of my body. Not quite, he has already told me she is very soft before, but I'll learn to handle it. And that's good!
Then I'll enjoy the summer, with all the little and big pleasures that he is preparing. My doctor has now told me to relax for a few days .. and I will .. sailing in May. Full of expectation, I count the days until we get into the car and ultimately then again sail boat. Out on the lake .. play with the children, without thinking about what to do yet .. read a book (or more) .. drink in the evening enjoy a glass of wine and chat, listen to the water, breathe the air and let go the fear. So it will be.
Even the last few days I started to concentrate on the essentials - the children, my family. A beautiful and relaxing weekend we have spent, in spite of work we have found time for us as a family. Michael also has a Saturday afternoon a few hours, took time off and spent the time with us. So I'm
so hopeful and so full of confidence that everything will be fine!
And .. a big thank you to read all the here and me reassure award, always there for me .. I am very glad to have you all!
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